7/09/1993 at 12:29a ...fixed macaroni and cheese, green beans and peas with a little garlic powder and pepper....I sat outside for a few minutes while everything was simmering and I closed my eyes and meditated..I still felt like I was being swallowed up by this black cloud...I was sitting in the lawn chair facing the sun. I decided to close my eyes as the sun? was so bright..As I drifted off I asked God to please help me to understand why I was feeling like I did...I started to see images, one of a man with a sort of bald head and large eyes and a big nose (white I, think) almost saw the face...then it faded to a picture of a man with golden brown flowing hair outlined his face and continued down to his shoulders, with a mustache and a light brownish long beard..he had such kind, gentle brown eyes...looked like a younger version of Jesus...he told me to just relax, let my self feel the gentle breeze blow gently through my hair and that everything would be ok..He said to let go of things that had happened at work as they were not important What was important was [B] and my children..He said to take care of myself for my family really needs me. Then he touched the middle of my forehead between my eye brows and I felt warm feeling just surged through me like a electrical current..He then said," Do not worry as everything is fine, things are working out as planned"....I was so stunned...I wanted to share this with [B] but decided... Now that I have gotten all that off my chest, I feel 200 percent better.. Talk to you tomorrow....I really am fine now......