pulsing light, tingling

93/06/12        08:10

  ...anyway... while laying in bed last night but not going to sleep I came
to the realization alluded to above.  My spiritual senses seemed to be
allowed to open a little more [sort of an "Ataboy!  [B]" reward I think]. I
"knew" that all I had to do was close my eyes, relax, and I would be allowed
to know more.  But I really didn't want to do that.  Instead I felt like
just lying there and soaking up the joyous feeling of what was happening
with you.  And in that atmosphere I was doing my thinking.  Even then I was
getting information presented to me [those pulsing blue light fields].

  Once I noticed as if a large paged book was being held up to the front
left side of my head.  I sensed pages being flipped thru and hands turning
them.  But I could not consciously tell what was being conveyed!  Another
time I "saw" for a few seconds a woman as if she was getting up from a
sitting position.  My perspective was from looking down on her from her left
side about five or six feet above her and out a ways.  As she arose she
turned slightly to her right thus not allowing me to see her face.  She
seemed tall, slender, with soft, flowing brown hair down to her shoulders
and there seemed to be a blue or black small ribbon just to the left in her
hair above her left ear.  The ribbon seemed to give her hair a certain touch
of girlishness and bounce.  I remember wondering who she might be.

  ...at about 2:30 a.m. I was laying on the bed facing [P] she asleep facing
me.  The overhead fan was blowing cool air down upon her and me (A.C. not
being used).  I drifted off toward sleep...  I noticed being in a sort of
large lot or yard.  Looking off ahead a ways I could make out the image of
some animals or forms.  I looked over to my right a ways and could also see
off in the distance some forms moving about.  Then my attention was captured
by what appeared to be a small like light starting to apear out in front of
my head a couple of feet or so.  At first it seemed small but quickly grew
to the size of a large thumb.  It reminded me of a reddish plastic rounded
lens cap shapped like the upper part of a thumb (like on the end of a
flashlight).  As the light grew in size it flickered with yellow, red,
orange mixes of light and it STRONGLY held my attention.  I noticed also
that I was feeling tingling sensations all over me.  I kept getting the
feeling that I was trying to be pulled up and away from my body.  Not lazily
trying to drift up and away BUT being pulled up and taken off to somewhere.
As soon as I began to realize what was happening I wanted to let it continue
a little but in a safe way.  I began to say silently to myself "God be with
me!  God be with me!, ..." which kept me comfortable with the experience for
a while as the light continued to pulsate and the tingling got stronger.
The sensation of trying to be pulled up and away grew stronger!  Finally I
new that this was all I could handle for now and then I "willed" myself to
come out of it and awake!  As I became conscious I noticed that the light
position had been just over [P]'s head above her pillow as viewed from my
perspective (if it had a position in 3D real space)...  I felt quite
excited.  [Just before awakening I had gotten to wondering if I was being
abducted which kinda is what led me to decide to awake myself.]  When I
awoke I checked the VCR clock and it said 2:42.  ... well, [C], I am
reporting a "first time" experience to you and very close to the time when
it happened to me.  This experience is not unlike other dreams and reveries
I have had.  ...you see, no damn "guidebook" provided as to what's it all
mean!!!  ... I guess, as usual, I'm suppose to figure it out myself or
ignore it or whatever I choose!  I suspect, however, that if my spiritual
awakening and development is to continue the choice reduces to work at
trying to integrate it into my knowledge and experience base!  But, now
[grin] maybe I won't be alone on the physicsal side here in trying to
understand it [read "[C] is here for me" at this spot - GGG].