93/06/14 02:50
I haven't fallen to sleep yet. After drinking several glasses of water
earlier I now have been up to pee a half dozen times...
....i just laid down again ...started to close my eyes ...saw a lovely
green color vase/bottle neck with a long white stopper/cork slide swiftly
upward and out ...(VCR clocked showed 2:39 am...
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93/06/14 08:51
...after I wrote you "...congradulations..." last night more things
continued to happen to me... like little short scenes that I would see as I
lay upon the bed...
...about one hour after sending off "...congrats..." I must have dozed off
for I suddenly became aware that I was the central character in a little
short scene... I was so caught up in it that it took a little time before I
remembered to realize to remember... the little scene was that I was
standing in a room of which I was aware that I was near by the wall just to
the right of a window below which was a man couched low for some reason as
if cleaning or washing on the wall... my character awareness kicks in where
I have a large, tall bottle of perhaps champagne in my hands and my mouth
is over the opening of the bottle as for some reason the champagne errupts
upward and all over everything including me, my face, my hair, my hands,
down onto my shirt and pants... I back up lifting my head to the rear and
one side laughing and filled with joy... the man to my left under the window
was watching me and I then became concerned as not to upset him and became
worried about the liquid now spilled on the floor... he moved over to begin
to clean up the mess and I kneeled down to help him... this was the point
where I remembered to remember and the scene was at an end... I immediately
awoke again... I lay there for five or ten minutes then got up to go pee
again... the VCR showed 3:42 a.m. ...
...BTW I found out last night about the pee thingy, why it's showing up in
our discussions... it shows not to overlook even the most seemingly
unimportant thing in the fabric of experiences when trying to "see" and
understand what is happening to you... [is this clear enough to you? last
night I understood crystal clear what was meant!!!]
...another time while laying on the bed in the dark unable to go to sleep,
I was startled when I heard a voice clearly say "watch out"... I seemed to
know that I was being alerted to be prepared for something just about to
happen but did not know what... I continued to lay there kind of waiting
and watching expectantly for what seemed as if it would come... suddenly I
was startled when to my right my mother poked her head into the scene thru
the wall of the scene as if the general right area of the scene were in some
way just a wall and mom was leaning over thru a window like opening with her
hands on the sill... she looked around inside my scene, appearing just as
she does over in her hospital room now... as she peered around she mumbled
several things, her mouth was without her teeth and she look kind of funny
just like she does over in her hospital room now... whatever she said I
couldn't understand it as it seemed confused as she does over at her room
now... then she pulled back out of the scene "wall" and was gone...
...somewhere also last night I saw another champagne bottle [I think a mud
brown color] appear up and out in front of my vision... it seemed to have a
rather long neck... the bottle just hung out in the space of my vision...
it began to spin clockwise I think... first slowly then picking up speed
until it was just whirling around...
...[sorry I just had to go pee, been drinking coffee already...]
...now, ...as you said [was it yesterday] "Now you have done it!"... a
little scene came to me... it was a vignette within which there was a woman
viewed from the lower neck up to above her head... she was talking on the
phone which she held to her left ear... as she was talking she looked out
in the general area of where my perspective was originating... she looked
out but did not see or know I was there... her reddish, brown hair was full
around her face... her face was full and her eyes seemed fairly wide
apart... I looked at her face and was so drawn to it as I could see she was
so very pretty... I remember feeling that as if I ever see this face in
real life I won't be able to resist it's pull...
...if you can please go to the library and try to find a book called
"Hidden Journey, a spiritual awakening" by Andrew Harvey. I found the book
at the library by "accident" a couple of days after a meditation in which I
asked to be given insight and to remember why it was that I have
reincarnated. Also read "Autobiography of a Yogi" by Paramahansa Yogananda
which I read a long time ago and then again a couple of months ago. Maybe
read too "Bhagavad-gita, As It Is" by His Divine Grace A.C. Bhaktivedanta
Swami Prabhupada - be sure to get THAT particular book, it has about 45
wonderful color paintings in it. [curiously enough what I have reported to
you has a lot of the "gita" in it - [B]] The "gita" book is slow reading
at first then picks up well... Each time when you read in these books ask
yourself inwardly to please be allowed to read and understand with your
inner spiritual eyes!
...you asked me once before when can we begin and I
answered "it already did, weeks ago. You just didn't know about it!"