7/06/1993 at 8:42a ... I have a few minutes before I leave for work.....I feel a strong need to tell you about a dream I had in the wee hours of the morning.....I woke up a couple of times, the first being I heard a noise like something running by very quickly......when I woke up, [B] was typing very very fast on the keyboard.......I turned over as not to disturb his train of thought, which I seem to do a lot and don't mean to, and quickly fell back to sleep...or so I thought.......I remember being in a room with a lot of fire......then I realized there were candles all around.....there were many colors in this room, vibrant reds, oranges, pinks, blues, greens.........everyone was wearing dresses in very colorful clothes, the women had veils on their faces, wore long flowing skirts or pants, like harem pants, very little to cover their boobs, which seem to suit the men just fine..... the men wore turbans on their heads......also long flowing pants and a vest type shirt.......I was not afraid to be there and did not know the reason I was there......there was lots of different things going on between various persons......there seems to be 5 women for every man.....they were each assigned a different task to take care of each of the men.......sounds like a harem or a brothel.. Oh, dear.......one of the men suddenly sees me and tells the women next to him to leave and that he wants to instruct me on how to please him.....he tells me I am a quick learner.........there is a distinct odor about him which I do not like....when I attempt to get up to leave, he pushes me down and forces himself on me.......I remember finally being able to leave and running, running to get away.....I am crying because there are people there trying to capture me and make me stay and I do not want too.....then I felt a gentle touch under my right breast, very calming sensation..... I slowly started to relax and realized that I was ok.....nothing was going to harm me..when I awoke [B]'s hand was under my right breast....I slowly drifted off to sleep again and I could see [B] and I was stroking his beard....this made me feel very happy and contented....and at ease.....I was not afraid anymore and had no reason to be.......I love him so much for being there for me......am not sure what all this means.......what do you think? *** 7/06/1993 at 8:15p ... I have been uneasy and skittish all day....I think these feelings are due in part to the dream I had last night.....it still seems so vivid..... I was not scared at first but became later after being attacked....I was enjoying myself up until that time..... I sensed that there was another woman there beside me telling me that it was ok and I would be very good at what I will be instructed to do because I have big breasts and this seemed to please the men who were there at the time..... Was this you, [C]... They all kept looking at me......The faces were pretty hazy ....Maybe it was [B] who was doing this or not.....He has always asked where I learned to do all the nice little sexual things that give him so much pleasure......who knows, I did wake up with tears on my face......it seemed so real.....[B] just loves to really get rough with me sometimes but not the physical hitting kind of thing....He is just not the type.....very gentle with the big "G" spot......drives me crazy just like I do to him........He said it feels like I have been doing this to him for hundreds of years or longer....H'mmm.... We are two "loose women" together again .... in a sense.....Now, the "Snow White" dream is really great.....spooky too, huh!!! It's [B]'s third eye shakra at work...better watch out!! I too have had dreams before of maybe being a prostitute.......here we go again.......I always lived in a nice house with many beautiful long dresses, my hair was long, flowing, very curly and very reddish brown....... I loved to put on lots of eye color and wear very sexy smelling perfume..........I also had the most beautiful sexy underwear, garter belts, bustier's to push my big breasts up even more, they would almost fall out of the dress..... most of the time they were out... ......BLUSH..(yes,I have always had big breasts in all my dreams)....... obviously something significant here.....I seemed to have been kept busy all the time....and was paid very handsomely.... I also wore beautiful jewelry that was given to me by my many gentlemen callers, one in particular, who was tall and blond and wore a mustache and a very very soft bears.... [B] has never heard this dream until now as he will read as he does all my mail when he sends it to you ....This dream took place in France......I remember the strange dilect being spoken.. so when I took French is Junior High School I was startled to know that I could speak it with such ease and did not even know why......again there was someone there with me who put my mind at ease with what I was doing......was this you again, [C].....[B] boy is in for some very big surprises and scrumptous treats... I wonder if he will be able to handle the two of us.......I love to wear eye makeup and love to wear perfume... Avon's Candid is my favorite....So what do you think of all this????? This just gets more interesting and more intense all the time......[B] also told me not to be afraid to dream.....little does he really know about us.......... *** 7/06/1993 at 10:53p ... Remember, "Dreams 'n' schemes and fairy tales, ice cream castles everywhere"....just started going through my mind as I sat down in front of the keyboard...it is really thunderbooming out right now....been on and off all day...go caught in a good soaker when I got home....[B] stood in the doorway of the house and stuck his tongue out at me....naughty, naughty.... *** 7/07/1993 at 9:02a ... I was sitting on the bed, sipping a cup of coffee that [B] had brought to me earlier, listening to him type on the 'puter when I closed my eyes and suddenly I was on a island......I could see the water for miles, there were several seagulls flying overhead....I felt very relaxed... I can feel [B]-boy's presence with me I just cannot see him yet.....the sun is just starting to come up, what a glorious and magnificant sight...the trees are swaying in the gentle breese......very quiet and peaceful.....I am awake again and oooooh, [B] just kissed me in the ear.......what a wonderful way to start my day........He said you would not be going to the water park..I'm sure you will find something else to do.......(SMILE) ....Take care, I will talk to you later....Have a good one......