i was moving along jist above the surface...
very comfortable in my sittin' not fearful of losing my balance... as if on maybe an aladdin
magic carpet maybe... there were others on the carpet with me... i think Pat too... we were kind of hangin' together... as the magic carpet
moved fairly fast... out over the sea... the sea waves were many and very blue... lookin' angry at times... the carpet flew low over the
water... pickin' up speed... we flew first this way... then veared a little to fly that way... we were so low... and the vision so magnificent and powerful of the rough and spiritually strong moving sea waves... that it seem to be scary to me.. i was sometimes beginnin' to be frightened of what i imagined might be comin' up out of the sea... on and on we flew over the rough and rugged sea... tackin' left and right... with sometimes dark objects down there to my left... sometimes to the right... till finally we approached land... comin' up to the shore line... then onto the shore...
and as the magic carpet slowed down to a stop...
i was noticin' a couple of men wearin' white like caps...
with desert like cloth hangin' down from the back of
the cap... as might be used to protect the neck from
blowin' sand... such a neat feelin'... a watchin' 'em bring
the magic
carpet in for a slowin' stop halt...
now while durin' the sea journey...
i remembered that i used to have dreams...
in which i was standin' and there would...
be rise above and 'round me... like an ocean of water...
jist up to my feet... but i always was ok... jist
a standin' there on a strip of narrow sand...
in one dream with i thought holdin' rebecca
by the hand... protectin' her dear... in other
dreams jist that there rose 'bout me water...
till i was surrounded by it... and i seemed
always to be git a fear of what might arise...
from 'neath those waters out there... could
not git over the feelin' of "some things"...
could might be lurkin' out there 'neath that
sea water... fearful things they might be...
and dear... as the magic carpet 'proached the
shore line... i got the most powerful feelin'...
of "the journey had come to an end"... after
a very fearsome and movin' sea voyage... and felt
quite a relief... that the sea journey was over at last..
"...My name is Bridget Murphy... I am 28 years old, married to Sean Murphy... He is 33 years old... We have 6 children, 3 sons whose names are Patrick John (7), Michael Shamus (5), Thomas Donovan (3)... We have 3 daughters whose names are Mary Francis (8) , Catherine Elizabeth (6), Britta Maria (2)... We live just outside of Dublin, in Northern Ireland... We raise cows and sheep... Our house is very modest, my husband built this as a wedding present for me... ...The year is 1841..."
1993 Summer Reading:
seemed to "glow"
Listen & Follow Along
...well, SOMEBODY went and did it... from about a little after noon until around 4 pm I was literally in an altered state of consciousness that was like being intoxicated with love... it started off gently to slowly build to a soft peak then lowered me down again to subside away... during the soft peak Rebecca, Elizabeth and I were sitting in McDonalds eating a hamburger as we
were running errands - and as I looked at people their face and skin seemed to have a soft radiance, a pretty girl just seemed to "glow" with joy all over her... THE KEY TO THIS SEEMED TO BE ITS SOFTNESS AND THE GENTLE AND SUBTLE WAY IT CREPT UP ON ME but it was damned powerful in that you felt as if you were sweetly burning all over... and I would look at a car or truck and it's finish and color would look beautiful... and still the feeling grew stronger till everywhere I looked EVERYWHERE and EVERYTHING seemed alive and so, so lovely... I was beginning to feel if it got any more intense I wasn't going to be able to stand it...
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"Little one, the band indeed is the opening of his third eye chakra. This is a visual
experience for this one for he is one of great wisdom and knowledge. To explore the aspects of oneself takes great courage and is seen as an act of loyalty to the one who created us all. Bill is awakening to his innate talents of intuition. The band at times occurs to remind Bill to look at the situation in a different light. Always listen to your heart! Also pay attention to your body, every uncomfortable situation has a reason as does every feeling of joy. Explore these possibilities as your third eye is open. Be confident that this will bring only joyful experiences into your life."
As I went deeper and deeper I saw the Earth circling below me... reminded me of pictures from space... then I saw an opening and I was being pulled down into a long dark tunnel, spiraling as I was going down... I finally quit spinning... I asked where I was and was told I
was in Rome, Italy during the Roman days... I was being chased and was running so fast but whoever was chasing me was catching up fast... I could see off in the distance what appeared to be fires all around the city... When I turned around to see who was chasing me I saw this big black glove and it was trying to smother me... I was having a hard time breathing and Bill woke me up and got my breathing back to normal... He said to go and ask my guides why this was happening and who was doing this to me... The person chasing me was my father... I asked him why and he said he had to do something to me that
 would hurt me... that he loved me very much and this was going to be a very hard thing for him to do... I asked him what and he said he has to kill me because he does not want me to be raped by the Roman soldiers who are chasing him... They have orders to kill all the women and female children... so he starts to beat me with a club all the time telling me how much he loves me and that this is really hurting him so very much,
he is crying as he is beating me... I finally am surrounded by darkness... I feel myself floating out of my body, to a spot just above my body... I can see the Roman soldiers catching up to my father and they are beating him because he has already taken my life... they are mad at him because he has denied them any chance of raping me... they beat my father to death... My father's soul rises out of his body and I tell him how much I love him and he tells me how much he loves me and how sorry he is for what he had to do and that we will always be together... always... We were being killed by the soldiers who were given orders to kill by the emperor Caesar, the one who was in charge when Cleopatra was living...
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B instructed me to relax again and asked me if I wanted to share any other lives with him at this time... I told him I was an Indian woman who lived in Wyoming... I, Rose Marie, age 16, was on a wagon train headed for California in the 1830s when we were ambushed by a group of Indians... I was literally picked up by one of the braves and taken back to their camp... I was later told that all my family had been slaughtered and I was taken because I was the right age, with long red hair and green eyes... I was presented to the Chief as a gift from the massacre... There were two
braves who wanted to make me their squaw... they fought over me and "Laughing Waters" won, made me his squaw and named me "Sweet Leilah"... we had two sons together... then he was killed in a bloody massacre by some soldier from a nearby fort... this man who was my husband reminds me of RS, a guy who does cabinets for us at work... He is a seventh day adventist... The chief decides I need another brave, and finally I end up with "Laughing with the Earth" the brave who originally lost me to "Laughing Waters"... We had two daughters and lived a very long fruitful life together... We have many grandchildren and great grandchildren and they are very kind to us and take very good care of us... My two sons from my first husband are Dan and Nick today... One of my granddaughters is R and one of my great granddaughters is Elizabeth and another granddaughter is Charlene and a great grandson is Tyra... "Laughing with the Earth" is Bill today... You see we have been in many past lives together.
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I forgot to add one significant detail last night that the midwife in the Amish part of my dream is my Aunt BK now and she is still watching over me and tending to my needs without me asking... In the "Indian dream" there is one particular squaw who seems very interested in helping me adjust to my new life... She is small, dark brown hair, very expressive eyes... Her name is "Smiling One"... she is a teacher of sorts to me as I do not know very many of
 the customs of the Indian people... I learn how to cook from her, how to make clothes, how to skin a rabbit, deer, and buffalo... I can see her face now as she is turning to me... very very beautiful... Big smile with big sensual lips... I asked my guides who this is and they tell me it is Charlene who is in our life now... I ask how can this be as I am being told that Charlene is one of our grandchildren... I am reminded that the older Charlene died before any of our grandchildren were born and was quickly reincarnated into one of our grandchildren... in the Indian custom, reincarnation comes very quickly as I am being told... You have been with me all along, through all kinds of lives and experiences... we are so connected we will never be able to break the tether line... unbreakable, un-bendable, un-snapable...
Dearest one, The one that Bill saw in his dream was
 indeed Catherine. She picked that guise because it was a comfortable situation for Bill. Indeed these two have been together many times. This particular life was in Germany during the 1800s. You were indeed man and wife. You lived a very comfortable but thrifty life. Yours was not a high position in the government, but none the less you were able to raise 5 girls in relative comfort. Your name was Henri Baudine, hers, Gertrude O'Sullivan Baudine. The town was known as Hamlin in the time. Sananda
...I again did some "role playing", this time I was back in Atlantean time... located
 somewhere in the Northern Province... I was the sultaness of my palace, the female equivalent to a sultan... I had a harem of guys and I provided them with women to service them for the times I did not need them... One girl in particular was my own personal handmaiden... her name is Lilly... She has waist length dark brown hair, very large brown eyes and very large sensual red lips, along with a long slender figure with exceptionally large breasts and a long narrow nose... Her main job was to service me when and where I needed it for as long as I wanted her to do it... sometimes it would last all day and night depending on the mood I was in at the time... I never married but did birth 3 children, 2 girls and a boy and the boy inherited everything from me as I did from my father upon his death... Lilly and I grew older together... I am not sure who Lilly is today...
In Rome, you were a man in the city who, like others, was unable to care for his family for there was no work, no money, no food, and much unrest. When the people began to, well, riot for lack of a better word, you lost control of yourself and joined in the rioting. An
 innocent person caught in the middle was brought down by you. You swung a blunt object over and over until it was done. It was the sight of what you had done that caused you to leave then and to do no more harm, but nonetheless you took with you guilt. You hold it still and it causes you problems. You did not recover your purpose in that life, and died a miserable soul, eaten away by guilt. The one whose life you took is with you now, possibly a sister, or your wife. You still seek forgiveness for that deed and yet there is no sign from this person that all is not already forgiven. The lack of forgiveness is yours. Forgive yourself, my dear, and you will feel better. In the process of letting the guilt eat you up, you forgot why you had incarnated that time, to serve the Lord in the way that you could best. I see that you were a gentle and loving man, as you are today, and it was by what you did and how you held your eyes upon the Lord, not by what you said, that you served him best.
OH MY GOSH!! This is so NEAT... or weird, or whatever... I say "I have to change into my Snow White clothes" when I'm getting "girled up"... Are you sure I haven't mentioned that to you before??? And the picnic table thing... On the 4th, I was sitting next to my brother, Gordon at the picnic table by the pool... really close to him, and my niece, M, was sitting on the other side of me. Gordon is a huge man, with dark brown, tossled hair... I didn't have sky blue on the day Gordon was here, but I did yesterday... And the nick-nack shelf...My blackish colored cat, Yoda, got in trouble yesterday because he was laying on top on a fake blueberry pie that I have on my new baker's rack next to the table in the kitchen!!
1993 Spring Reading:
Rome and Greece
Listen & Follow Along
Q: Is there a past life connection between Jacque and Bill?
A: Yes, beloved one, there is a connection. Picture a time and a place near Naples, Italy. The time was
 one of peace before Roman invasions. The two were brothers born to peasant farmers. The boys married early and raised large families. We see them working together in the fields cutting grass. Then, as now, the heart strings of these two are entwined. They are a complement to each others personality and will be of great help to each other in the times to come. We picture another time in Greece where these two were husband and wife. They were childless but loved each other more deeply because of that. They were healers of the highest form and many came to them to have demons and spirits removed. In a time of great struggle these two banded together to help suffering people rather than to support war efforts. They did much good in the time and have been rewarded richly by the angels. Jacque with her extreme intelligence and psychic powers. Bill with his love for people. He is also one of great intelligence and is spiritually advanced. His hair is the color of a carrot. Love, Hiram
...and quickly fell back to sleep... or so I thought....... I remember being in a room with a lot of fire...... then I realized there were candles all around..... there were many colors in this room, vibrant reds, oranges, pinks, blues, greens......... everyone was wearing dresses in very colorful clothes, the women had veils on their faces, wore long flowing skirts or pants, like harem pants, very little to cover their boobs, which seem to suit the men just fine..... the men wore turbans on their heads...... also long flowing pants and a vest type shirt....... I was not afraid to be there and did not know the reason I was there...... there was lots of different things going on between various persons...... there seems to be 5 women for every man..... they were each assigned a different task to take care of each of the men....... sounds like a harem or a brothel.. Oh, dear....... one of the men suddenly sees me and tells the women next to him to leave and that he wants to instruct me on how to please him..... he tells me I am a quick learner......... there is a distinct odor about him which I do not like.... when I attempt to get up to leave, he pushes me down and forces himself on me....... I remember finally being able to leave and running, running to get away..... I am crying because there are people there trying to capture me and make me stay and I do not want too..... then I felt a gentle touch under my right breast, very calming sensation..... I slowly started to relax and realized that I was ok...
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here we go again....... I always lived in a nice house with many beautiful long dresses, my hair was long, flowing, very curly and very reddish brown....... I loved to put on lots of eye color and wear very sexy smelling perfume.......... I also had the most beautiful sexy underwear, garter belts,
 bustiers to push my big breasts up even more, they would almost fall out of the dress..... most of the time they were out... ....BLUSH... (yes, I have always had big breasts in all my dreams)....... obviously something significant here..... I seemed to have been kept busy all the time.... and was paid very handsomely.... I also wore beautiful jewelry that was given to me by my many gentlemen callers, one in particular, who was tall and blond and wore a mustache and very very soft bears.... Bill has never heard this dream until now as he will read as he does all my mail when he sends it to you.... This dream took place in France...
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2010 Summer Dream:
Three Gold Rings
Listen & Follow Along
"...in the early summer I had a short dream wherein I was shown a small rectangular box which had the top off. Inside was a rolled up cloth of fine white material and evenly spaced with the white cloth roll laying in the box were three beautiful gold rings threaded by the roll. These I interpret to be symbols of Charlene, Pat and my (Bill) connective link together! It was kind of a touching symbolism...."
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1993 Summer Reading:
the sea journey
Q: What is the purpose of the journey?
A: You are each on a journey to deepen the level of consciousness of your spiritual self. Each is attempting to reach inside to find your own truths for things you have found unfulfilled in the world outside yourself. You are attempting to shed the knowledge learned in this lifetime that has not served you, and build your own store of knowledge and truths that do serve to bring you happiness and peace, and that bring you closer in harmony with yourself and the world around you.
Q: How long does this journey take?
A: This is a never-ending journey, but inner peace and harmony, although not perfect, can be reached to a point of fulfillment. There is always more to learn and experience and share. You should not compare progress. Each person
progresses at their own pace, and each has learned things which can be useful to the others.
Q: Is there a specific route the journey takes?
A: The route you take to your personal fulfillment isn't important. It is reaching the level of fulfillment you desire that is important. The goal is important.
Q: What do you mean when you say that we are slow learners?
A: You impede your progress by working against instead of with each other. The conflicts and discord distract, and slow the natural progression. You often use the example of the flowing river and of going with the current, not fighting against it. You fight against the current many times. You have each made a pledge to help the others. You lose sight of this pledge.
Q: Why do we get the lessons, or what Bill refers to as the "side tour-butt kicking"?
A: You all lose sight at one time or another of what you are trying to accomplish. At times the lessons are to right you. At other times the lessons are assistance from the guides to help you on your journey.
Q: What are our jobs or duties on this journey?
A: Each of you has strengths. Pat and Charlene have strength in insight. They are developing their skills in channeling to the source of knowledge. Bill has strength in action; in thinking and speaking. You would do well to respect each other in their strengths and learn from them. They will be a great help to all of you.
Q: Will there be any surprises on the journey?
A: There will be much that is unexpected. This is the nature of the learning process. I cannot tell you what the unexpected will be. There are many variables and many paths to take. Still you will reach the goal if you are heartfelt in your search. "Ralph"
1993 Summer Reverie: 'Ralph' Quote
Listen & Follow Along
 "...I've been talking to you for a very long time, but it's only lately that you have started to listen..."
On 10/28/2010, Charlene wrote: Wow... I can BARELY remember Ralph... I remember sitting in my bathtub, I think, and seeing him... I can "sort of" see a bluish face... Maybe a turban?????? I'm not sure about the turban, though.... I could be thinking of the Aladdin cartoon... lol I DO remember him saying that he'd been talking to me, or communicating with me for a long time, but that I'd just started listening... And, it seems like, or feels like, he was my "inner voice"... I'd never seen him before, but he'd been there [with] me for a long time... Like someone on my shoulder, giving me "advice", whether I listened or not... :) Which makes me think that nearly everyone has "guides"... Most don't pay any attention, or choose to ignore them...
Q: Are there past life connections between Bill and Charlene?
A: Darling, there are many. We now see a life in Australia where the weather is harsh - desert
country. Still we see white lace curtains on
the windows of a rustic building. Here Charlene lives with her son, fighting the climate but seeing no hope in moving on. Charlene will age and die at about the age of 60. Her son, Clem, will live on to run the ranch with hatred and with stress. He will not marry and live a very lonely life.
We also see a time on Pleiades when the two of you were lovers, young ones from different villages. Your lives
were wonderful then: filled with love. Eventually you were mated and raised many little ones. Remember, both Bill and Charlene that it is your choice to be on earth at this time.
This is a very "melancholy morning"... A rather symbolic incident happened as I was cooking breakfast... I told you I was feeling subdued and pensive this morning... partly due to this the Anniversary of Jeff's death... While I was cooking the scrambled eggs, I saw my brother Jeff standing before me... He was just grining from ear to ear and his eyes bright blue and just shining... He told me that he was very happy now, he spends lots of time with Daddy, Granham and Grandpa and cousin Skip... Skip and Jeff hang out together a lot... He has messages from everyone... First he said that Bill and I are doing a great job with the kids except for a few subtle suggestions... One, go easy on the children, be gentle with the children, this came from my Grandmother HM... I could almost hear her voice as Jeff was telling me... He said Rebecca is turning out to be so beautiful and her health will continue to improve... He said you've done a great job Pat and Bill... My Daddy sent a message about our situation... he said just be patient as I know this is not your strongest suit... Everything is working out for the best... Keep a very close eye on Bill... Jeff said they are all watching us and monitoring what is happening in our lives... He said if we don't be more kinder and gentler to the children, there will be some major butt kicking... We need to keep a tighter reign on Tyra, get Elizabeth's temper under control, let Rebecca have her wings so she can fly... He said we have given her much more freedom than before and this makes him very happy... Jeff had kind of shortish reddish brown hair, was in his 30s looking very very young... He had on loose white pants and a long white shirt... He acted just like he did when he was alive, carefree and a free spirit... He wanted me to know that he is so happy now and I am not to feel badly about his leaving... the tears just streamed down my face as I was cooking the eggs... luckily I turned the burner down just as this was starting to happen... This was not a vision but something that really happened to me... I could HEAR Jeff and SEE Jeff and could FEEL his presence... I have seen my Daddy, Grandpa and Grandma at various other times... sometimes if I didn't see them I HEARD them talking to me... "WHISPERS"...Bill said to tell you that this was not an imaginary thing that happened... very much REAL and so NEAT to happen on this 4th anniversary of Jeff's leaving us... This is a release for me and another wall to come down... I've got goose bumps all over me again... felt the same way earlier when I saw Jeff this morning...
Q: Who has been guiding Bill through his thoughts lately?
A: The one known as Bill has many guides and helpers. The one he speaks of is an angel. Her name is Kathryn. She also speaks to Bill in his dreams. She is an angel of the highest realm and loves Bill very much.
Q: Who is the woman who speaks to Bill in his dreams?
A: Her name is Kathryn, little one, but you already knew that.
Q: Could I please be given information of a connection between the souls of an entity known as Kathryn and Bill?
A: My darling, these two have chosen to be together many times here on earth as well as on other planets. Katheryn has chosen not to incarnate at this time but to act as a helper for Bill who has much important work to do.
Q: Could I get some further information regarding this relationship?
A: Yes, indeed, darling. These two have heart threads delving to the beginning of time as you know it. Kathryn is here as a teacher for Bill. Her relationship to the flying saucers is a close one. She is attempting to show Bill that there is more than simply a 3 dimensional world [referring here to some unusual dreams he was having]. There are many other layers of reality to become accustomed to. These entities are your friends. Do not be frightened of them. An exchange of information will take place. Look forward to that day with love and peace in your heart. All is well and everything is just how it should be.
Per Adium Lieu, Hiram
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I went into a deep meditation and seemed to travel through several different tunnels... I remember feeling like I was having a very bumpy ride, being tossed around from side to side and jerked by my foot... The first stop was someplace where there seem to be a lot of fires erupting all over the place... then I was running down a long narrow street with buildings surrounding me ... I thought someone was chasing me as I could hear loud voices very near me... I turned around once and tried to see who it was that was chasing me... I could not see the face, so I kept on running... Then I was grabbed on the arm by someone, turned around and was being beaten with a stick... I was trying to cover my face and head as this person was beating me on the back and legs... I knew it would be my head next... When I looked at the person's face, it was Bill and he was very angry at me... he kept hitting me harder and harder and I kept telling him to please stop... he said it was for my own good and some day somewhere I would thank him for it... then I must have passed out... next thing I remember is once again traveling through what seemed to be tunnels... there seem to be volcanoes erupting  all around the town that I lived in... everyone was running trying to get away from the terrible thing that was going to happen... the sky had been dark for several days... like a presence hanging overhead just waiting to cut loose.. This time I was with several women and we were all huddled together in a room... we were told that we would be safe as the Gods would take care of us... we were not to fear the blackness that was surrounding all of us... just then one of the eunuchs came in that took care of us and pointed to me and a couple of other women and we were told to come, that the Master had a very special place he wanted us to be in as the danger was quickly approaching... why he picked us I don't know... We seem to travel down several floors beneath the main palace... None of us ever knew these rooms ever existed... there was rampant destruction everywhere in the city, no food, no water and it seemed like it was hotter than Hades... But down underneath, there was fresh water, lots of food and it felt very cool... We were led to the Master's Chambers where we were told we would be staying to serve the Master for the rest of our lives... We felt very special, but worried about those we left behind... We were told they no longer existed, then when we pressed on we were told they all had been killed... The Master was very handsome and took good care of us, as long as we serviced him in the proper way... only when we disobeyed did we get beaten... even though we had been saved, we were not beneath punishment... One night as we three were taking care of the Master, someone broke down the door and came charging in after all of us... we started to run in different directions, trying to find a way out and to save our lives... once again I was running, and it seemed I could not run fast enough... I remember getting hit over the head and then everything went black...
1993 Spring Dream:
Denmark and Egypt
Listen & Follow Along
"The musing thought Bill has about being a child of Jacque is actually a remembrance. The time was in the middle ages in Denmark. The family lived in a large brownish stone building. An apartment house, if you will. They lived upstairs in a small corner dwelling. Bill, his mother and three other sisters remained in the apartment most of the time. The father was a government official, but in times of upheaval the families of politicians, even minor ones, were better off to keep to themselves."
"Darling, the one known as Jacque is acting as a sounding board for Bill. Up to this point Bill has been afraid to share his innermost
experiences. Jacque is one that he can trust, for indeed, she has been a part of his life in many cycles. Once in Egypt she was
Bill's closest friend. Both were male at the time and worked side by side on the construction of an ancient pyramid. They were slaves and much abused. It was hard in the time to trust anyone, however, these two trusted each other well indeed. Catherine indeed has been with both of you in your lives before. She was your mother in one cycle (of both of you). Bill was a girl whose name was Marakish, Jacque a girl, also, named Elizabeth. This occurred on another planet. Bill, most beloved one, be sure of yourself. Trust your heart and what you believe."
...fixed macaroni and cheese, green beans and peas with a little garlic powder and pepper.... I sat outside for a few minutes while everything was simmering and I closed my eyes and meditated.. I still felt like I was being swallowed up by this black cloud... I was sitting in the lawn chair facing the sun. I decided to close my eyes as the sun? was so bright.. As I drifted off I asked God to please help me to understand why I was feeling like I did... I started to see images, one of a man with a sort of bald head and large eyes and a big nose (white I, think) almost saw the face... then it faded to a picture of a man with golden brown flowing hair outlined his face and continued down to his shoulders, with a mustache and a light brownish long beard.. he had such kind, gentle brown eyes... looked like a younger version of Jesus... he told me to just relax, let my self feel the gentle breeze blow gently through my hair and that everything would be ok.. He said to let go of things that had happened at work as they were not important. What was important was Bill and my children.. He said to take care of myself for my family really needs me. Then he touched the middle of my forehead between my eye brows and I felt a warm feeling just surge through me like an electrical current.. He then said, "Do not worry as everything is fine, things are working out as planned".... I was so stunned...
"I dropped off asleep again. Then I had a dream: the scene was set around some narrow streets with buildings made of brick or stones. I was with some men-friends or brothers maybe. I was wanting to speak to the girl. We were by her house outside the street. I spoke to her up to her house to maybe someone in the family. I heard her say to them that she wanted to go to 'somewhere' it being obvious she did not want or expect to see me here. I called out that I did not want to talk to her and walked dejectedly away around the back of a building on the street feeling very sorry. In a moment or so a friend called me to the building edge as there was someone to see me. And there she was. I urged her to come around back of the building which she did. And I said to her why are you here? I looked into her face. I noticed how small she was, barely up to my mid-chest. She looked as if she was in her teens, or twenties. She didn't answer but gave me a look which said "are you alright, how do you feel, I don't want to talk to you!" She then turned around and stalked her tiny self off. As she moved away she muttered "It's over for you, Catherine!" I was dejected! The wind picked up and I saw the dry, broken leaves whirl and blow against the stone wall nearby.
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...AS I DID THAT, I noticed that someone was sitting in the chair. I leaned back to sit down in my chair which was facing to the left of the other chair. The fronts of the two chairs were just a little forward but side by side whereby our knees were close enough together that I could reach out and touch the other person's knee. As I sat down I reached out and placed my hand on the knee of the other person. As I was settling into my chair I said "Let me sit down here in this chair, honey!" I was startled and looked up when I saw a woman sitting in the chair. She said to me "I like honeys. I use to know a honey a long time ago." The woman was looking directly at me. Her eyes were soft and knowing. She was in her 60s or 70s with grayish hair placed up upon her head (not hanging down about her neck). She seemed to have dark eyebrows. She was slender wearing a long dress that filled the chair in which she was sitting. As I had sit down I was feeling the kind of feeling when one stops to rest and justs lets being in the same room with another loved one relax you. As I looked up at her I really didn't know her but she wasn't a stranger either. In a way my feeling was kind of blank and I was puzzled. When she said she use to know a honey a long time ago I was thinking this must mean me-us when we were younger as she seemed quite old now. After a few seconds of gazing at the woman sitting in the chair the scene ended and I immediately awoke.
On the way over to Bill's Mom we listened to the Grace Family Tape on Rebecca's tape deck... I kept getting these stirring feelings about a certain song called, "Cold Frosty Morning-Juneapple" ... I didn't say anything to Bill but on the way home we were again listening to this tape... When that particular song came on I saw before me people dancing... the women were in long dresses, muted blue, muted rose, green, lavender... the men were dressed in dark
 clothes... after the song ended I mentioned to Bill that I saw people dancing in front of me... He said for me to play it again, only this time I closed my eyes... I saw a barn raising dance with lots of people and fiddlers and banjo players... There were lots of families and people dancing... I watched myself dancing and it was really an amazing sight to be able to watch one's own self dancing... I danced with one man in particular, I could not see his face at first... He had a long blondish gray beard, brown eyes, and his hair was blond with some gray highlights... My hair was dark brown with reddish highlights, long and pulled
back with a bow and wisps around my face... I was wearing a cream colored dress
with a high collar... I had on high button shoes... I was asked by another man to dance, but eventually went back to the first man... When I finally looked up in his face it was another version of Bill... His name is Abraham and my name is Rachel... another OMG... The music has almost a scottish-irish twang to it... This barn raising dance takes place in Pennsylvania... we are either Amish or Quaker or Mennonite, I am sure... there are so many different sects in the Pennsylvania area... The name Lancaster keeps popping into my head... I know that is definitely Amish country... Mennonite too... Bill said he thinks the picture he saw at the hospital of the girl in the white rocker is Rachel, who is really me... OMG...
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I was listening to the Grace Family tape while sipping some beer with Bill and I closed my eyes and here is what happened... I looked and looked thru all the people who were dancing and guess who I found.??? My very best friend in the whole world, Charlene... Your name is Kathleen, your parents names are Thomas and Anna... no last names yet... You are surrounded by boys and men, all wanting to dance with you... You have long curly reddish brown hair, more red than brown, pulled back with a lavender bow to match your long lavender dress... You have high cheek bones, an hour glass figure with big breasts... we can't seem to get away from them, can we???? You are not married yet and seem envious of me and Abraham... I keep wishing that you would find someone soon so you could be as happy as we are at this time... We are 21 at this time... We have been best friends all our lives... You are now completely surrounded by male admirers who all want your undivided attention... You keep looking over at Abraham and me, Rachel, as if you want me to help you out... I motion to you with my hand to go ahead and have fun and enjoy yourself... You are fanning yourself with a beautiful fan someone has given you... Someone else has just brought you a cup of punch... You are so happy and just love all the attention... We are happy for you... We made a pact that I would wait to have children until you get married... Neat, huh!! Abraham is anxious that you will find someone soon as he is wanting to start a family very soon... I tell him,"Patience dear as I need to wait until Kathleen is as happy and content as we!" He just smiles at me and understands as we all grew up together... You never dated him but we all hung around together... like brother and sisters... Abraham is protective of the both of us... I am still working on last names as Abraham and Rachel don't have any either... See, I told you I would find you at the dance... Are we smiling yet!! Sure hope so...
2010.07.01 Dream:
sea voyage, Myst Physicians
Listen & Follow Along
...went to bed early last night Wednesday and slept soundly till about 11:30 p.m. or so... woke up and went to the bathroom... came back to bed but really couldn't get to sleep so lay there "resting"... some time passed and again i got up and went to the bathroom... back to bed but couldn't go back to sleep yet... after a while i got up went to the bathroom again and got a few sips of milk which usually acts like a sleeping pill for me... back to bed and laid down... laid on my back and "relaxed"... this would have been after 12:33 a.m. as i always check the clock when i get up and come back to bed... there is a fan blowing cool air slowly over my bed from beyond the foot of the bed... i apparently drifted off after some time had passed... suddenly i found myself setting up in a bed in a small rectangular room... the bed was in one corner and i was watching a large LCD television sitting in the opposite corner of the room.... i don't remember what i was seeing in the scenes of the TV but after a little while there was this little pink ping pong ball came sailing out of the tv screen toward me and bounced off my bed near my head and onto the floor... then the tv turned off and the tv set just dissolved and disappeared... and there was only the corner of the wall that i was looking at... i did have the feeling that all this was to prepare me for "weird odd" things happening and about to happen... i was ok with this however as i am used to such things happening in my dreams and reveries... i got up off the bed in the small room on the right side and stood... i noticed the wallpaper to my right... it was very flimsy with little rectangular holes all along it in regular lines... the wallpaper was only attached by little pieces of tape to the corners... there in front of me i noticed there didn't seem to be anything behind the wallpaper so i touched it with my hand and the tape pulled loose on the left side and revealed what looked like a semi-circular little room where i thought maybe somebody was going to build a shower in perhaps... then i looked a little to the left of this enclosure and saw again that the wallpaper was very loose... i heard a noise such as whirling and felt air movement and saw the wallpaper blowing... i thought this must be where the a/c unit is located... now mind you these were strange things to be noticing in my dream character and i knew it... but was not phased by it... then i found myself outside the door of my little room... i was in a wide airy hall with great visibility off in different directions... i took a few steps then turned around and was looking for the door to my room again... about that time two young men were walking near me in the well lit hallway... i asked one of them "what is this place"... he was a white male wearing dark colored trousers and a shirt... his light brown hair was cut very short... i heard him say something like "Angel Clinic something something"... then he became playful and kind of tackled with me or the other male... and he said something unusual which clearly was supposed to get my attention... he said something to me which sentence had the word "f......" in it... this shocked me somewhat because of the fact of where i was, it being some kind of hospital setting and called Angel Clinic... this scene faded... i find myself flying thru the air on my back in the direction of my head yet i could see around and below me... i am fairly high in the air and can't see anyone with me but i wasn't frightened... down below me was an ocean... and the waves were huge but oddly not moving as if time was stopped except i was moving fairly fast... as i looked down i saw many many different kinds of boats afloat on the surface of the waves... as i flew along i curved this way and that way perhaps completing something of a figure eight path... there seemed to be hundreds of small boats down there... remember the waves were not moving but seemed to be still... i was beginning to be a little concerned tho thinking what if those boats see me and start shooting up at me (us?) flying around up here... then i found myself flying lower as if to come down near the surface of the sea... the closer to the surface the faster i sensed i was moving.... then i saw that i was flying into the side of a ship but i went inside of it... i was slowing down quickly now... i saw corridors in the ship as i continued to fly along slowing down... shortly i came to a flying halt and there was a doctor right at my head almost as if to catch me with his head practically next to mine as i stopped... i was looking him in the eye... i said " that was scary" [funny i said that because i didn't really feel it - Bill... and he said as he examined my head and face "i can give you something for that"... then i said "are we in one of those ships i saw down there?"... he shook his head no... then i said "i know, we are under the water, aren't we?" to which he didn't reply... by this time i saw that i and he were in a very spacious doctor's room... he was the most amazing man with yellow scrubs and the room was well lit with bright gentle yellowish colors... the doctor was a white human with light brown hair and something like a stethoscope around his neck... this scene and experience at this point had an ultra real feel to it!!!... he seemed to back away but i really wanted to stay next to him because he felt so good to be up close to... a second doctor approached me and looked at me below my neck... i was looking down at his head and he was looking at my upper chest and doing something with his hands... i couldn't feel anything or see what he was doing... as he reached he said "this one's an MMI"... not understanding i asked "what's an MMI?"... he replied but i didn't catch what he said... then the scene began to fade over a few seconds and i found myself awake in my own bedroom... [figured out a couple days later that MMI likely means Multi Media Interface - Bill]
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