The Rivendell Writers Guild - 2004 Gazette - Winter Solstice Edition
 

I Remember America

 

I remember the hopping, furry brown
     shapes slipping into our garden from
     the encircling, waving golden
     grass.
Appearing as if by magic onstage from
     the wings, they hippity-hopped their
     way around the smorgasbord that
     was our Victory garden.
I remember our dog, Lady, racing to
     scare away these intruders, who
     vanished as quickly as they had
     come, only to slip back again as soon
     as the chase became wearisome.
I remember America.

I remember Scarecrow, walking down
     the Yellow Brick road with Tin Man,
     Cowardly Lion, and Dorothy.
I remember our scarecrow, in our
     Cornfield, leaning into the blustery
     autumn winds as they swept in off
     the plains with the rich, earthy smell
     that was the harbinger of the rain
     soon to fall.
I remember the impunity with which the
     crows perched on his outthrust arms
     as he implored them to fly away.
I remember America.

I remember the campfires winking,
     blinking their welcome in the forest's
     gloom.
I remember the men there, like the
     scuffed-up, downtrodden of Bible
     fame, men who always had just
     enough and could say, "How about
     some Mulligan, boys? C'mon over.
     The Mulligan's hot."
I remember the moan of the passing
     freight whistle, reminding them of
     their loved ones so far away,
     reminding them of their quest, of the
     need to move on... searching,
     searching, always searching.
I remember America.

I remember sitting in the old wooden
     rowboat on a sultry July day, the
     surface of the small Wisconsin lake
     showing us what a mirror should
     really look like, as we ate sharp local
     cheddar between two slices of white
     bread, no mayo.
I remember concluding that fishing was
     a sun-baked day spent feeding
     worms to invisible fish.
I remember America.

I remember the motorlaunch as it
     passed the breakwater, slapping into
     the cobalt-blue ten-foot Atlantic
     swells, outriders from Hurricane
     Bertha's eye, Florida-bound some
     110 miles southeast.
I remember entering the warm,
     turquoise green of the Gulf Stream
     and throwing out our bait for the
     waiting hordes.
I remember concluding that deepsea
     fishing was a day spent feeding small
     fish to invisible, bigger fish.
I remember America.

I remember walking point for the Forest
     Service trail crew in the Selway-
     Bitterroot Wilderness Area, feeling
     I was being watched, concluding that
     I was a dumb, daydreaming
     greenhorn and to get on with it.
I remember the feeling on the back of
     my neck when the trail boss caught
     up and asked if I'd felt a "presence",
     that a cougar had been tracking me
     all morning.
I remember America.

I remember the barren, rocky path,
     worn into the very backbone of the
     12,000-foot Continental Divide in the
     Wind River Mountains.
I remember the clattering hooves of the
     unseen goats as they raced away to
     keep out of sight, the echoes of
     their passage resounding from
     neighboring peaks; the kreeeing cry
     of the passing Golden Eagle adding
     to the cacophony of echoes; the
     inescapable icy blast from the nearby
     glacier - all of it giving me shivers.
I remember America.

I remember the joy of exploring alone
     the network of fresh-water rivers
     that feed the southern Everglades,
     with the profusion of swimming,
     darting, flying shapes that
     overwhelms my mind even today.
I remember watching in wonder as the
     mother dolphin slowly herded her
     newly-weaned calf downstream
     towards the open Gulf from her
     hidden, freshwater nursery.
I remember the momentary flash of
     sunlight off the back of the oncoming
     male, the father, as he raced
     upstream, knowing in some mystical
     way just when to leave the bachelor
     pod that waited ten-or-so miles
     offshore to rejoin his family at
     exactly this moment.
I remember the awe as I slipped on a
     mask and tumbled into the water to
     witness this hidden moment, the joy
     of the reunited cow and male, the
     tentative-then-glad acceptance of his
     father by the calf.
I remember thinking how this was a
     family that would always be
     together, always.
Oh, how I remember America!

I remember watching the slow-moving, gnarled knots of
     old, dead wood, idly drifting towards the feeding
     White Crane as it moved majestically, step-by-
     cautious-step in the knee-deep water.
I remember the unhurried flap-flap-flap of his great
     wings as the Crane lifted off and above the stalking
     Alligator.
I remember America.

I remember wondering where my shiny
     dime had gone that I left on the
     lookout tower's only table.
I remember wondering how a small
     shard of pale-green broken Coke
     bottle found its way into the middle
     of my lookout tower floor.
I remember three months later having
     to say good-bye to the inveterate,
     furry trader who had become my
     friend.
Yes. I remember America.

I remember Panchi, my first bunny
     friend who introduced me to a whole
     new world, gone after just two years.
I remember the albino-white dear,
     whenever I braved the day before
     sunup, feeding with her fawn on my
     hilly bayside lawn, who always
     greeted me without fleeing... until a
     hunter decided otherwise.
I remember the look in the fawn's eyes
     as it searched for its mother.
This, too, I remember of America.

I remember the freedom of flying in this
     land - flying here or there, as I
     wished, when I wished.
I remember the thrill of leaving Mena,
     Arkansas, going to 25,000 feet to
     pick up a two-hundred knot tailwind,
     to land at Teterboro... non-stop.
I remember making a twenty-minute
     hop in Australia to the neighboring
     aerodrome, and having to file and
     get government clearance for the
     flight.
I remember America.

I remember the odors of my
     Grandmother's roast leg of lamb and
     baking mince pie; of the steam from
     Mrs. Happ's pressure-cooker valve
     filling the house with the rich
     promise of aged sauerkraut and big,
     fat German sausages.
I remember Miriam's scrambled eggs
     with Belly Lox and onions on Sunday
     mornings; of coming home to the
     smell of Mae's Southern fried
     chicken, the priceless heritage from
     her Great Grandmother and Alabama
     cotton country.
I remember the San Jacinto Monument's
     all-you-can-eat shrimp platter;
     Durgin Park's baked Indian pudding;
     and, Cuban coffee at any of the
     shops along Flagler Street.
I do remember America.

I remember how I felt as the Siper
     Constellation descended into Idlewild
     and my first glimpse of Long Island
     after three years in the Middle East.
I remember with a year in Asia behind
     me how I felt as the ship arrived and
     the skyline of Miami rose like a
     refound Atlantis out of the sea.
I remember how at first we kidded about
     "The land of the Big Green"; how we
     learned to lovingly claim it ours, this
     "Land of the Big Green".
I remember the tears in my eyes - both times.
Yes. I remember America... well.

And, finally, I remember America.

I remember being asked, "What is a patriot?"
I remember someone who has their own
     memories of such things, who cares
     enough to do something to protect
     the memories, their own and those of
     all others.
I remember thinking the least we can do
     is to let our voices be heard with love
     for each other, if nothing more than
     for the principle of love.
I remember thinking we can all be
     patriots.
This is what I remember about America.

© 2004 Bill Conrad

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