3/14/97 8:28 PM Wow! I knew it had been a long time since I wrote in my journal but I had no idea it had been 3 months. . . all winter, almost.
Very interesting . . .
The events of the past few months took all I had just to experience them so there was nothing left over for writing about them. I did write about other things that happened a long time ago that I had never before written about and I really enjoyed that. I re-lived some very special events in order to record them and include them in this book. I saw these memories through new eyes and enjoyed them in fresh new ways.
I feel I have just completed a major cycle in my life. It was a nine year cycle and nine is the number that represents completeness. On the ninth anniversary of the union between my Christ Self and my Self, I ended up walking on the same beach where Pinky and I took our honeymoon walks. Our honeymoon cottage was quite a ways down the very rocky beach, but I wanted to see it, so I persevered in spite of a very sore foot. I have very high and tight arches (having to do with my preference for flying with the angels in the playground of the gods v. walking) and I recently tore my left arch while jogging. When the foot doctor told me I would end up with a slightly flatter foot, I immediately got the connection between this injury and my need for grounding and balancing the Heaven and Earth energies.
The transformation into a flatter foot has taken place in several steps and has required quite a bit of adjusting on the part of the entire foot and everything it is connected to. This was a situation where pain was not to be avoided. Everything had to stretch and give to accommodate the changing structure. So the pain was like the pain during a massage when it hurts good as tight spots are released. I really had an opportunity to use the techniques I've learned on ignoring pain because I faced several days in a row of sharp, constant, electrical pain. But, I knew this pain was not wrong--I knew I would emerge with an evolved foot by hanging in there with the stretching in spite of the foreboding pain.
The timely visit to Vashon included a vibrant reunion with my dear friend J. so I was in a well-charged state when I headed out for my walk on the beach. When I got to the shore, the unevenness of the rocky terrain caused my arch to curl around the stone it landed on. Bolts of electrical pain shot up my leg as the cord yielded against this pressure but only under extreme protest. Intuitively I knew this was very therapeutic. I knew the energies of the stones, the water, the sun and this special place would do wonders to release me from the restrictions of the earlier form. I could feel that if I walked very slowly and carefully placed my foot and rolled my arch over the stone it was a very effective foot massage and reflexology treatment.
The conviction of this being healing and the desire to revisit the honeymoon cottage kept me going. As I proceeded, the arch relinquished slightly with each step and it came to life with electricity shooting through it like little bolts of lightning. For the most part I was able to distract myself by communing with Pinky. I also got lost in the splendor of Mother Nature in this beautiful display of her handiwork being illuminated by a surprise visit from Sun.
A creek entered the bay at about the halfway point to my destination. It presented an expanse of water that was several feet wide. I remembered writing about this potential barrier in my illustrated account of a walk on this beach several years earlier. In that telling, when I reached this place an inner voice said "Just see yourself on the other side and jump!" That had gotten me across last time, but I didn't have a sore foot that time. I had decided that if I wanted to keep going, I was going to end up with either a wet or a very painful foot. But, I was determined to proceed. I once again heard the inner voice "Just see yourself on the other side and jump!"
I felt myself open to the possibility of divine intervention and I recognized how my mind had not considered that possibility. I stopped fussing about it, assessed the required distance for a moment (like Cassie, our cat, when she does her pre-jump calibration), lunged, and landed on the other side with no pain or wetness. What a graphic illustration of the potential barriers created by the mind's limitations. And I know better!
As I continued on towards my destination, I did so in a state of bemusement as I realized I was re-playing "My Walk on the Beach." I reveled in a state of knowing that I am deeply Loved by those that I deeply Love. I reminisced with Pinky about our wedding and honeymoon that had taken place here. We reflected on how our Love has grown and deepened, but is still fresh with the enthusiasm of falling in love. I am thrilled by every indication of his presence. Reflecting on and being in this Great Love was the diversion I needed to stay beyond the stabbing pain that shot up my leg with each step.
The honeymoon cottage had been nicely kept up and it looked like not much had changed in the nine years since I house-sat there. Seeing it rekindled a desire to obtain it to use as my special get-away place. (I have recently re-affirmed my need for time alone, so I am visualizing a get-away place to fill that need while still living with Vyto--this spot will do nicely.)
I went a little past my destination to the point, then turned around and headed back. It was a chilly day but as I turned, my cheek soaked in a ray of sunshine and its warmth radiated to my depths. I found a dry log to lean against and stopped to soak in more of this beloved radiance. Sun is always a participant in the anniversary celebrations (I see it as Pinky offering Sun to me as an anniversary gift--one he knows I will enjoy.) and I welcomed him to this one by opening every bit of my being to receive and be stimulated by his penetrating heat. I offered back a connection and access to everything I have access to. Our exchange was potently enlivening and balanced.
Sun traveled through my body along the electromagnetic circuitry and passed through the newly opened gateways in my left foot. It felt like it had to poke its way through with little needle-like projections that created a very strong 'pins and needles' feeling throughout my arch. I could very tangibly feel rushing rivers of electricity passing through the bottom of my foot. I stretched my foot under the influence of Sun's healing heat and I felt things give a bit. A hopeful sign as I set off again with confirmed faith in my foot therapy..
There were a few times when I wished it wasn't quite so far, but for the most part I was totally captivated by the beautiful surroundings both inside and out. I was also very pleased to have stumbled onto what my foot needed to proceed with its healing and evolution. I was only slightly disappointed that I was not joined by the big red beach dogs that were so entertaining during previous walks on this beach. Their absence was a reminder that things have changed as the cycle closes.
My foot did re-coil following the stone massage therapy, but as it happened, I went with my friend Lee to the ocean for the next few days, so I was able to continue the foot therapy with long walks on the sand that gently stretched my arch and persuaded it to give again. A few swims in the indoor pool, followed by hot Jacuzzi baths also contributed their therapies. And now that I reflect on it, I also felt very relaxed. Traveling with Lee facilitates a sense of well-being and letting go. We are dear friends who can totally be ourselves with each other and our preferences are similar enough for us to do very well on the road together. We are both open to letting our angels guide us, so we let go and enjoy the ride. We always have grand adventures and very magical events take place along the way. And things seldom happen the way we thought they would--it always turns out better than we planned. I feel nurtured when I am with her which helps me relax and let go in harmony with the physical and electromagnetic letting go processes.
As I was waiting for the ferry after dropping Lee off at her home on Vashon Island, I started massaging my injured foot. I discovered one tight cord that seemed to be the source of most of the soreness. I followed it from the top of the inside of the ankle bone, over the top of the foot, back under the foot and up the calf where it seems to reach a junction with a different muscle group. At this point, my probing fingers found several small, but very tight knots that gave off electrical jolts of pain when manipulated.
I had been focusing my healing energies on the site of the injury, but I knew there was still the underlying cause of the tightness that caused the tear in the first place, that needed to be resolved. Discovering the knots in my calf certainly shed light on the physical cause of the tightness. During the ferry ride, I vigorously massaged my calf using the heat of my Christ Light to melt the rigidities and I marveled at the simultaneous reactionary sensations in my arch.
At home that night, I felt driven to dance in spite of the foot soreness. When I began the fluid movement, the foot started to 'give' significantly for the first time in weeks and I knew it had all been worth it. Since the pain had persisted for so long, I had started to doubt that I was doing the right thing. But, when I felt it giving, I was reassured that the newly adapted foot was emerging. I was taught that sometimes the healing process requires undoing the way things were in order to put things together according to the new blueprint. The 'undoing' can be quite painful, but once again, when there is understanding that it is for a higher good, the pain is transcendable.
Along with the 'giving' sensation, my foot came to life with tingling electrical pulses and I once again felt gateways being unplugged as current passed through the bottom of my foot. As it did, it triggered an increase in the flow and the rate of the current running from my third eye antenna down through my left foot, increased dramatically. It was obvious that the tightness in my arches had cut off an intended opening for this river to flow through to Earth and was acting as a dam. The energy trapped by this dam ended up bouncing up and down in the calf and shin areas causing assorted reactions. But, now the floodgates were open, the backwaters were released and the bridge that delivers Heaven to Earth via opposite current circuitry is clear and operational.
The increase in the rate of flow of the Heaven to Earth side of the channel was of course transferred to the opposite Earth to Heaven side of the stream. (This transfer mechanism assures balance ->perpetual motion ->eternal life.) As I observed the dramatic increase in the speed of the electrical rivers that run through me, I was stunned by what unfolded before me. Colors intensified and vibrantly sparkled like they were glistening in sunshine. Deep jewel colors bathed in gold fireworks danced all around me in spiraling, synergistic patterns. My inner family members took on a new depth, brightness, and glow. And when I looked in the mirror, I swear, I was glowing too.
I went over the edge into a state of deep, dumbfounded awe. Once again, just when I thought it couldn't get any better . . .
I could clearly see how my preference for flying through the heavens and the resultant hesitancy to walk on the ground had caused an imbalance which resulted in the damming effect which backed up the energies and slowed progress. This was certainly not my true desire. Therefore, a solution was devised and I surrendered enough to be guided through it. And, in addition, the resultant rate increase makes everything more beautiful, so there was certainly nothing sacrificed through the grounding process. The collaboration has enhanced both Heaven and Earth. And I am the blessed recipient of the resources of both.
A few days later, on Sunday, Vyto wanted to go for a walk up in the Weyerhaeuser Woods so we went for a drive along the Coweeman River and climbed to a place where the road had been washed out by descending waters. We walked on from there at a very leisurely pace enjoying the mountain greenery and forest magic. I worked on relaxing my foot as I stepped and I once again felt an influx of electricity through the gates at the bottom of my feet. In this setting, I especially felt the connection to Mother Earth and felt her opening to receive what I had to offer. I vividly experienced the role of conduit as I passed the juices through my vessel.
Upon our return home, I couldn't help but notice another increase in color brightness and twinkliness. This was another confirmation of the significance of the opening of the foot gates that facilitates the flow-through of Heaven ->Earth.
3/30/97 8:17 PM In the two weeks since these breakthroughs, I have been learning about how much more I have to work with when I maintain balance. I have seen that Earth's offerings are just as valuable as Heaven's and I feel privileged to see her fabulous Beauty unfold before and through me. I once again feel driven to express through dance and I feel deeply satisfied when I do.
Yesterday, when I called on healing energies to radiate my leg and foot, Mother Earth energies emerged and bathed my leg in a type of green light that I had not seen before. It was very bright and vivid green and it could pass through/permeate other matter. It was not unlike other times when Mother energies were present, but the light seemed much more concentrated, like a sparkling gem, and gave the impression that it was more potent than previously. I was pleased with finding such tangible evidence of the increase in flow.
As I have noticed before, most major transitions that take place within me are mirrored by major transitions in the planet and this one is certainly no exception. About two weeks ago I sent an e-mail to Lee that I was noticing conditions in the EMF seemed very unsettled and I surmised that the lunar eclipse and the comet were the cause. Lee wrote back with news of an event that confirmed my 'unsettled assessment.' She lives on the waterfront of Vashon Island and the small cabin, two doors up from her, slid off the hill during a landslide and landed face down on the bulk head. She and I agree that the best part of this story is that the young man who resides in the cabin had just rescued a mouse from his cat and had gone outside to release it. He was heading up the stairs when he heard a noise, looked back, and watched the cabin crash.
I cried when I read that part. How incredibly perfect is the guidance offered by the Universe when we are in sync with it. By following the Universal Law that says that all life is equal and equally valuable when seen through the eyes of Unconditional Love, the Universe was able to reciprocate the rescue. Mother is changing. She is awakening and expanding in ways that are causing significant alterations which translate into what we see as natural disasters. But by being in sync with Mother and opening the avenues of communication with her through the intuition provided to us, and opening to the forces of Unconditional Love, you can trust that you will always be in the right place at the right time. We can't stop Mother's progress, but we can rely on Love to give us what we need to get through.
Mother's progress is sometimes facilitated by shifts in her EMF which can influence gravity and other forces of Nature. Her lifts into higher frequencies are often coordinated with events that shake things up, cause openings, and sometimes lift up on gravity, so she can take advantage of additional forces (or the absence of opposing forces) to help her climb. During the period when I saw everything as being very unsettled, Metatron kept giving me clues about gravity, and then I realized that both a lunar eclipse and a visiting comet would have an effect on gravity. And those two events occurring together could have quite an impact on the EMF. It might be worth going back and looking up the news stories around the time of the lunar eclipse--Holy Mackerel! I just realized it was also the Spring Equinox! Yikes!! Each one of these events alone are considered major in their effect on the EM systems, so three of them coming together must have really wreaked havoc on the status quo. I am sure that gravity was diverted by interfering forces that pulled it away from Earth. This temporary gravitational loosening up allowed for both the breaking free from old restrictive patterns, and the jumping up and connecting to a higher frequency EM resource.
As my physical being is adapting to accommodate more Earth energies, I am also watching Mother energies awaken and emerge through my being as I become a better conduit. I am a witness to Mother Earth's rising up because I can see that her light has brightened, deepened, intensified, etc., and continuous sparks create a golden, vibrant glow as her green flames dance in a hot fire. The bigger picture myth played out this story by having events come together that created the opportunity for Earth to successfully make her jump--once again demonstrating the benefits of teamwork.
The changes I have noticed in the EM realm are a direct reflection of the increase in frequency Mother Earth is experiencing as she has climbed a rung in her evolutionary ladder and begun the next phase of her active adaptation process. The fact that this has happened directly after reflecting on the completion of my nine-year cycle is certainly no coincidence. I can clearly see how the completion of that nine-year cycle naturally led me to the start of the next. The events of that cycle taught me what I will need to face the events of this one. I feel no regret in leaving the just-finished cycle because I am experiencing the perfection of the transition and I trust the signs that say it is time to move on.
This is the first major alteration in how things look
to me in the EM realm during the nine years I have been viewing it. I consider
this visual indicator of the onset of a new cycle to be a delightful and
valued gift. I am opening myself to its many offerings. And this curious
scientist and appreciater of wondrous Beauty wants nothing more than to
throw herself into the midst of these new surroundings to study and learn
about them. I am still in a state of wondrous, incredulous awe, but I am
moving towards accepting that this new, more vibrant state is not fleeting.
Through a well-orchestrated team effort, Earth has been boosted up to a
higher place and now we all have the same choice--as the ever-delicate
Metatron says "adapt or die."
Written 23 April 1997. Copyright © 1997 by the Order of Pink Roses.