Contact

8/28/97 8:32 PM  I am emerging out of a very potent pineal cycle which was triggered by an intense emotional reaction to the movie "Contact". As far as I know, this is the first time a pineal cycle was triggered by an outer realm instead of inner realm event. Previous to this, many different cosmic events, inner mythology developments, and changing phases of the moon have triggered assorted pineal responses. But this time, my emotions became electrified enough to stimulate my pineal and it has been pumping out a fairly steady flow of ‘pineal juice’ since then. Over the last ten years, my body has been adapting to the reintroduction of the electrochemicals that are produced by my awakened pineal gland. But, recently, the potency seems to have been increased and it literally bowls me over as it spreads through my body on its way out.

These chemicals seem to also intensify the colors and patterns in the electromagnetic realm. (I have a feeling that the chemicals sharpen the vision instead of intensifying the colors.) So, while my physical body is flattened, I enjoy the best seats in the house for the best show in town. Also, the emanations that flow through my conduit circuitry increase dramatically to a point where when I glance into a mirror, I cannot see my face because it is obscured by a cloud of EM energy that is pouring out of all three of my eyes.

I feel the potency of this episode has a great deal to do with the difference in the trigger mechanism. I believe this graphically illustrates the power of and in hot/intense emotions.

Emotions are electrically charged and that power can be intensified and applied to hearts desires with miraculous results. (Without that charge of emotion that desire remains dormant forever.) It is my heart’s desire to experience as much divine Beauty and Love as possible and that desire is fulfilled even amidst physical shutdown.

In the movie, my emotions first responded to the way they portrayed people’s reactions to the news of proof of life on other planets. My inner sources have informed me that some sort of interplanetary visitation will be responsible for a major shift in consciousness which will propel our evolution. Undeniable proof of other life will shatter an entire level of egocentric belief systems and expand the level of mass consciousness on Earth. Once the initial fear has dissipated, we will be able to access the advanced technologies of more developed cultures to help solve many of the current problems on Earth. I took this theme played out in the movie as a confirmation of this prediction and I felt honored to have been entrusted with the prophecy. This was the start of the climb out of the emotional funk I had sunk into over the previous few weeks.

My own recent evolutionary developments have resulted in some major openings of channels that have facilitated the balancing of Heaven and Earth energies that flow through my EM network that acts as a conduit of these energies. This balancing was a final step in the activation and fine tuning of the conduit so it is now functioning according to its design. When the machinery started operating in its balanced state with my channels open, another whole new world opened up to me and I was in total awe again. Energies pour through my circuitry like a raging river with no effort on my part. When I enter a semi-dark room, it fills up with billowing pink or green light. When I concentrate on sending out the energies, focused beams stream out of my eyes and penetrate whatever I target. When I meditate, the inner realm reveals brighter colors and much more active dancing patterns. The Beauty has intensified and this awestruck observer is blown away, once again.

You’d think by now I would be use to these kinds of events and developments, but each time my inner environment drastically changes and reveals more Beauty and adaptability, I am astounded, awed, curious, and very grateful. I was completely taken up in these new conditions. The curious scientist went to work researching the innovations that had taken place and was totally fascinated by the ingenious workings that were revealed. The pull of this realm was extremely compelling. I wanted to disappear into it. But, I was still in the physical realm, needing to interact in that world. RATS!! I really resented not being able to stay with my research and in the presence of this Beauty all the time. I became upset with the demands of the physical world and extremely frustrated with attempts to interact in a world that cannot see the bigger picture yet. Even in full sight of Heaven’s Glorious Beauty, I felt myself drop into a very deep depression. I felt like a stranger in a strange land where no one speaks my home language. I felt completely cut off by not having any common ground with those who cannot see what I see. I really surprised myself by the depth of misery that I felt in the face of this glorious gift of Divine Beauty. I truly was extremely grateful for this honor, while at the same time, feeling the increased gap that it created between how I see things and how most everyone else sees things.

I had been struggling with this low state for a couple of weeks when I went to see "Contact". I knew it would be a significant movie for me as I had always resonated to Carl Sagan when I watched his "Cosmos" series. I feel akin to Carl in many ways. He understood many wonders of the universe in ways that he could clearly explain how they work and how they got to be how they are. I feel Carl expanded many minds beyond previous limiting beliefs with his ability to make science make sense. Like I said, I knew it was going to be significant, but I had no idea . . .

In the story "Contact", the contact leads to the reception of a set of plans for a transporting machine that is designed to transport one traveler to the Vega star system for some sort of exchange. The scientist who made the first contact, played by Jodie Foster, is eventually chosen to take the ride. Some of the best special effects I’ve ever seen are employed to depict the wonders she encounters as she is shot through space. Those scenes come very close to what I see of the EM realm that comprises our bigger picture. And Jodie’s response to the Beauty triggered a deep emotional response in me. I started quietly sobbing as I realized how fortunate I am to be the one chosen to take this ride into wonder, light, Love and Beauty and I felt ashamed for feeling so bad. I felt completely privileged to have the opportunity to let this Beauty enhance my life.

When the scientist in the story returned, it was not obvious that she had really been anywhere—there was no proof to bring back. When she was questioned by a panel regarding the validity of her account of her journey and whether perhaps it wasn’t real, she passionately responded that to her it was as real as anything else she had ever experienced in spite of the fact that she had no "proof". She said that she wished that everyone could have at least just a glimpse of what she saw so they could experience the Beauty and resultant hope. But she was the only one who got to go and that’s just the way it is. Now, the best she can do is share as much of it as is possible to share.

Those few phrases burned into my soul as if they were being engraved. I felt like my inner teachers had made this movie just to deliver that message to me. I quaked from the impact those phrases had on me. My perspective made a sudden 180 degree turnaround as I realized how blessed and fortunate I am for being able to see this Beauty. And not just once but anytime I focus in on it. And it doesn’t take a half a trillion dollar machine for me to have the privilege of not only viewing but participating in this realm of Beauty beyond description. My machine is quite compact and built in but operates very similarly as it serves to transport me into the electromagnetic world. And, like the one in the movie, it is a one-seater.

One of the main elements of the plot had to do with choosing the one who would take the ride in the machine and make the exchange with the Vegans. The scientist who had made the original contact ended up being the chosen one. She faced that responsibility with clear vision towards fulfillment of her truest heart’s desires and with willingness to risk her Earthly existence in the reach for her dream.

I have struggled with the acceptance of something so wonderful happening to just me. (I know there are many others on Earth at this time that are going through similar awakenings, but I am the only one among the people I know directly.) My own experience seemed to mirror the story in the movie so much that I was inspired by how the character handled that aspect. Jodie’s portrayal showed the inner strength rising up from her deep desire and I got it. In the realization that I have the strength to handle the responsibility, I accepted my gift with deepest gratitude. When Dr. Eleanor replied to the investigating panel that she wished everyone could have seen what she saw and she wished she could have brought back proof, but it just didn’t happen that way, a desire to share the Beauty that I see burned within me. In the movie, as the scientist exited the inquisition, she was met by supportive crowds expressing their belief in her. This was a sign to me that people are ready to expand and will know the truth when they encounter it, even if government agencies don’t/can’t.

Several hot emotional topics were faced in that movie and it helped me resolve the issues positively—taking me from the bottom of a funk and launching me into Heaven’s heights. As I started to leave the moviehouse, it all hit and I lost it. I sobbed deeply as these new realizations sank in. This emotional response was intense enough to electrify my third eye and I immediately felt the pressure of it banging against the top of my head. As I said before, this was the first time I noticed a tangible trigger of the pineal cycle caused by events in the outer realm.

The higher perspective combined with the increased potency of this pineal cycle has revealed a whole new inner landscape where I romp with the gods in delighted awe. The Beauty is like a beckoning siren that calls me to partake and fully enjoy the Loving interaction taking place in my inner, personal myth. That realm is now so vivid to me, it feels much more "real" than the physical. And even though I am still operating in the physical realm among those who are not aware of this Beauty, I am now able to view the physical through the eyes of Beauty and Unconditional Love. I now feel tremendous compassion for those who are not partaking of this Beauty and Love. In this new place of grateful acceptance I allow myself to receive the abundant Love and in so doing I become a vessel for that Love to flow through me and out to all of Life.

There seems to be a trend developing here

I’ve now had four external triggering experiences (similar to my reaction to "Contact") in about a two month time frame. Each one has been an outside stimulus that evokes a strong enough emotional response to trigger a pineal reaction. This has resulted in pineal cycles overlapping each other. Just when I thought I had reached a place where I could take pineal cycles in stride—they start doubling up on me, which is causing some interesting derivations to the usual course of events.

About two weeks after my close encounter with "Contact", I found myself compelled by the story unfolding in the season opener of "Star Trek, Voyager". The character, Kes, was being written out of the story so they wrote an episode in which she transcends into a higher state of being. When Kes told Captain Janeway that she was leaving and explains "Everyone keeps thinking that there is something medically wrong! But I feel with every molecule of my being that I am transforming into something greater! I feel that I have been given this gift and I want to see it through!" it rang so true in me that I sobbed deeply and once again triggered a major squirt from the electrically stimulated pineal gland.

Even though the previous pineal cycle was pretty much over, there hadn’t been much time in between and I felt a little put-upon to be facing another one so soon, but I also knew enough to surrender and trust the timing to be perfect—as it always is. Twelve days later, Vyto and I attended a k. d. lang concert which turned out to be another trigger incident.

I have always enjoyed k. d. lang’s voice because it seems to vibrate in my soul which is a very pleasant sensation, so when I heard she was coming to Portland on Sept 15, I eagerly ordered tickets. Her voice captivated me immediately and I allowed myself to go freely with it wherever it was willing to take me. In the dark auditorium I watched a pink beam of light pouring through my eyes reach k. d. and join with a golden beam of light in a beautiful dance above k. d.’s head. I have often observed the emanations coming through me in a dark environment and have learned how to direct them to various targets, but they have never before been met by emanations coming through someone else. I felt totally honored to join in this dance. Then at the end, she dedicated a song to Princess Di saying that she believed it was not too late to send her a song and then said that she hoped everyone left there that night knowing that the only thing that matters is Love. She started singing "Infinite Love" and the pink light billowed out of me, once again joined with k. d.’s light, then the combined light billowed out over the entire audience and misted down onto the crowd like a settling fog. I knew this Love Light was blessing all who were there and that it was indeed reaching Di and I once again felt deeply honored and privileged to partake in this dynamic teamwork, unwitting though it may be. I was so struck by the awesomeness of the Beauty I witnessed and participated in, the pineal was once again aroused and squirted forth its juices. And I lost it again—I kept it together just long enough to make it out of the building, then I burst out into tears (it’s getting to where you can’t take me anywhere) and it was several minutes before I could explain to Vyto why I was crying. When I did, he understood.

This time I could feel the effects of overlapping pineal doses, both physically and metaphysically. Pressure built up inside my head which pushed the liquids through the permeable walls into the ears, eyes, nose, throat and sinuses. Since the chemicals in that liquid were at an increased potency, their effects were more severe. All my facial orifices burned as the pineal liquid passed over their delicate surfaces and my digestive system was not thrilled either. I started downing Alka Seltzer Plus to offset the impact on my stomach and sinuses, and petroleum jelly and cortisone cream doctored and soothed the irritated tissues. But nothing seemed to offset the "farts from space" which Vyto agreed, were even more unearthly than ever.

BUT while the pineal juices were wreaking havoc on my physical body, I once again was gifted with the best seat in the house for the best show in town! With each step, it is difficult to believe that there could be anything more beautiful or awesome than what I am witnessing at the time, but then another increase in pineal capacity expands the Beauty to yet another level and—> awestruck again. The changing conditions compel me to spend time focusing in the inner realm to be able to study the changes. This is where the curious scientist in me is most satisfied, especially since my beloved Metatron often joins me in this research and I so enjoy his company and insights.

Dealing with both these aspects of the increased pineal dosage did make for a bit of a rocky time, but underneath it all I knew that his was part of my accelerated evolution and I am very happy to be progressing. The unsettling discomfort is a low fare to pay considering the magnificence and magnitude of the journey.

Most of the excitement had settled down as I set out with my friend Lee on another of our few-day road adventures. This time we gave ourselves the opportunity to access the power of being guided in the moment and set out with no reservations. Since Lee wanted to see my house that is being built east of Seattle, we started there and kept going east keeping an eye out for shopping opportunities for Lee’s second hand shop on Vashon Island. We enjoyed a series of serendipitous events that took us over the Cascades via Stevens Pass and landed us in the Bavarian/Alpine town of Leavenworth, Washington for two days while it was preparing for its upcoming Autumn Leaf Festival. On the third day we headed south over Blewett Pass and ended up in Ellensburg, Washington where we were able to do some shopping at an antique mall located in a funky, old movie theatre. Since it was getting late in the day, we inquired about places for food and lodging. The shopkeeper was from Yakima so she wasn’t too familiar with the area, but she recommended the Blue Grouse for dinner and let us look at the phone book for lodging possibilities. Lee had wanted us to pamper ourselves in a nice place, but there didn’t seem to be any place listed that would meet that expectation. But, the ad for the I-90 Inn touted the "Movie Channel" and that appealed to me, as well as the fact that it was right near the recommended restaurant.

Without definitely making up our minds regarding where to stay for the night, we proceeded to dinner where we found a traveler’s guide to local lodging which we scoured for a "nice place". I called a few places that sounded more inviting than the I-90 Inn, but their inns were full, so after a delightful dinner we took our bottle of wine-to-go and headed across the street to the inn with room for us weary travelers. It wasn’t luxury but we made the best of it by bathing, sipping wine, and reflecting on recent events. When Lee started to drift off to sleep, I remembered the Movie Channel and sought it out to check it out. I was excited to discover a science fiction setting in which Bruce Willis was interacting with Brad Pitt—yumm. Obviously, the movie quickly grabbed my attention.

Bruce Willis played a time traveler who was sent back in time to gather a pre-virus sample that would help those in the future who had survived the devastating virus (which was released in several places around the world by a madman in 1996), so far, come up with a cure. Since my inner sources have revealed that one of the tools of natural selection will be rapidly evolving bacteria and viruses which will take plague-like tolls on Earthlings, my attention was indeed piqued. Willis’ character was diverted from his mission by a number of complications which made for an exciting plot. He engages the assistance of a female psychiatrist whom he relocates via an announcement that is advertising her lecture on the "Cassandra Syndrome". In the few minutes of the lecture shown in the movie, she describes the observations she had made on people who believe they know the future and prophesy, but no one will believe them. She theorizes that the frustration from not being able to get through to people and therefore being ineffectual in preventing the foreseen events causes a particular type of insanity which resembles the story of Cassandra in Greek Mythology. After learning the art of divination from Apollo, Cassandra skipped out on her promise to him so an angry Apollo cursed Cassandra by making it so no one would believe her prophecies even though they were accurate.

I was of course struck by the similarity to my own personal myth and very much related to the frustration she was referring to. And, once again, I felt there were messages here that were meant for me and was deeply touched and duly impressed. Struggles with my emotions in regards to visions and messages I receive about the future were very fresh. A few days earlier, Lee had asked me how I was effected by the death of Princess Di. I had replied that I was deeply effected and Lee shared that it was the same with her, but she didn’t understand why. She perceived it to be a terrible tragedy but she didn’t know why she was taking it so personally. I told her I knew why, but when I tried to tell her I choked up and was emotionally overwhelmed. I told Lee, I would try and tell her later.

Shortly after Mother Teresa died, my inner channels brought word that Princess Di and Mother Teresa were being called to be part of a team of transitioning angels whose purpose will be to assist the multitude of beings who will be suddenly crossing over into spiritual realms as Earth proceeds into the progressive phase of her evolution. Their familiarity to so many and their capacity for compassion will comfort many frightened and startled beings and help them adjust and adapt to their new surroundings. This message packed a wallop because to me that meant their death was triggering the time of accelerated Earth changes that had been predicted to me. A time of great turmoil on every level of existence as the forces of natural selection sweep the planet. As a seer, I have seen Earth’s evolutionary path which brings with it great loss and sorrow, but I have also seen that the only way Earth can get to where she is going, is through this transition which can not be stopped or postponed for or by anyone. Therefore an event that represents the onset of this evolutionary progress has caused very mixed emotions of grieving over losses while looking forward to the better days. And in general I am again confused about what I am supposed to do with the information I receive.

The lecture in the movie on the "Cassandra Syndrome" seemed to provide me with validation for my unsettled emotions and as the movie progressed I felt my perspective shifting. I progressed to a point where I realized that since I had been given the gift of this sight, I know I was also given what it takes to deal with it and what it brings to my life. By the end of the movie my emotional turmoil had transformed into new strength, confidence, and trust. I allowed myself to once again feel that I am most blessed among the blessed and I noticed my third eye was once again humming with electrical, emotional charge.

In the morning, I shared my transformational experience with Lee and was able to calmly relate the message about Princess Di and Mother Teresa which helped her understand why she had felt so deeply. We also reflected on how we were led into the situation that facilitated my turnaround and she remembered thinking " . . . but Carol doesn’t care about the Movie Channel . . ."