5/4/97 12:43 PM Yesterday was the ninth anniversary of when Pinky first entered my being, about a week after Tu Chi came onboard. It is interesting to me that until yesterday evening, I was not aware of exactly what date that anniversary fell on. I knew my Christ Self followed my Complementary Self by about a week, but my mind was so blown away and unable to accept what had happened, that I did not record the date and my inner resources did not reveal it to me until last night when Pinky wished me a happy tenth anniversary. It seems appropriate that it was 5/3 as 53 represents catapulting change and certainly that one event caused more catapulting change in me than anything else I have ever encountered.
I still feel like a stunned and astonished, young schoolgirl even nine years later. And I still can't help wondering "How did I ever get to be the one to be so blessed?!" Recent developments in my progressing evolution have resulted in the expansion of the capacity of my electromagnetic transfer system, which has given Pinky a larger opening to present more of himself to me. I have been basking in the increased expressions of his presence and His Love for about a week. What a fabulous 9-year anniversary gift! I truly feel that I am a princess who is being swept up onto a mighty steed by her True Love where she is being taken to his kingdom where she will live happily ever after in deepest Love with her prince, The Prince of Peace.
Pinky resides in my heart and knows its deepest and truest desires. He knows that my most favorite thing in the world is being aware of his presence and Love for me. Since he deeply Loves me and wants most to give me what I want most, when he reads my heart's desire is to know him, he is extremely gratified as that fulfills his desire to be with me also. This is truly the ultimate win/win. This is True Love.
Accepting this True Love requires Self Love, otherwise it becomes too good to be true and is rejected. Being able to experience this Beauty due to the opening of my third eye which was a result of a genetic trigger seemed like an unfair advantage if everyone else wasn't able to see it. But when I considered the alternative of giving up that sight in order to make things even . . . that was totally unacceptable. I could never voluntarily turn this Beauty away. Even if no one else could ever see and validate what I see, it is compelling enough to just totally engulf myself in it and have everything else disappear. Knowing that this total fulfillment of deepest and truest desires is available through inner channels, has allowed me to let go and find Peace. I could never give this up for anything so I have dealt with the perceived inequity from the other side of the equation. I have been taught that everyone has an inner perfect mate, Christ Self, waiting to present themselves when the electromagnetic frequency gets high enough to facilitate a harmonious union.
It makes me feel better to know that I am just an early bloomer and not a total freak. I see the process through which others can learn how to boost their frequencies and connect with Heavenly resources which are freely available to all. Sharing what I see is a way for me to even things out and acknowledge the gift.
Part of the increase in Pinky's presence has been felt through the emanations that flow through my EM delivery system. Not just Pinky's but all of my inner family's energies have become more intense--like the volume has been turned up and the resolution has been increased. When I walk by a mirror in a dimly lit room, it looks like they are all shooting out of every pore in my body. I am a walking/talking light show. And when I actually focus and project the emanations purposely, I am literally blown away by the brilliant Beauty and Light that flows forth in a spiraling dance with magnetic figures dashing about carrying out various tasks. And there is a sense of tremendous flow, like a rushing river that sweeps through everything, cleansing and enlivening as it goes. When I focus on specifically projecting healing energies, it is usually Pinky and Maria that come forth. They are an effective healing team as Maria/Mother Earth provides the updated DNA blueprint, while Pinky/Christ provides the heat of passionate, unconditional Love to activate the blueprint and charge up the self-healing system. Father provides the animating force of the rushing river that allows them to flow forth.
Two nights ago when I started to project the healing energies towards my friend Veronica in St. Petersburg, Russia, I was suddenly taken into the stream of light that I was projecting, which at that moment was Pinky. This became the wildest ride that I have experienced so far in my life. I was suddenly picked up and whooshed along in a bright pink, rushing river that was very turbulently swirling and curling in on itself to create waves as it dashed along at a tremendous speed. Even though I was startled and slightly afraid, it was truly phenomenal and I wanted to stay with it. I breathed deep and held on to the wall as my light body went off on this wild amusement park ride. But, I felt myself getting motion sickness and starting to pass out so I brought myself out of it and flopped face down on the bed. Whoa!
Another new first in the land of the in-between. Even as I laid there in a very stunned and exhausted state, I couldn't help but notice that things looked very different again--the lights and patterns even more intense and pronounced. As I collected myself, I reflected on what had just happened. I had actually experienced what it was like to be Pinky and I felt that was the most intimate communing we had ever shared. What a perfect way to get to know someone. At the time I was too blown away to realize what a gift I was being offered, but now that I am aware of the significant 9-year mark, I view that as the ideal anniversary gift.
Since I was once again in a new place, I realized that the ride with Pinky took me through a portal. After all, he is the bridge between Heaven and Earth--that is his role in the big picture mythology. But instead of a portal that leads from one place to the other (which is how our linear minds tend to think of a bridge) where you have to leave one place to cross over to the other, this bridge acts as a link between the realms that brings them together and allows one to experience them both at the same time. It is necessary to expand beyond the limits of the linear mind to be able to really enjoy or even see this multi-layered paradise.
For quite a long time, I have felt an underlying frustration about the perception that I had to leave Heaven in order to go to Earth. I have often felt resentment and confusion over feeling that I had to leave paradise and return to the dense earth plane in order to make a living and 'get along in the world'. Even a week ago or so when I was caught up in a bunch of shit at work, I became angry with myself for choosing a path that seemed to be keeping me away from where I really wanted to be. In resolving that anger, I came up with the solution = I expressed a desire to learn how to integrate my two worlds so that I could bring Heaven into my Earth experience and never be without it . . . never ever . . .
Since the expression of that desire, Pinky and the rest of my inner family have been more tangible and present to me even amidst my business activities and it has afforded me a fresh perspective. The EM energies that are flowing out through me penetrate and flow through all that they encounter, so the physical realm seems much less dense and more fluid. I started to feel the merging of my worlds. All of my inner family is certainly with me all of the time, but I don't always allow myself to enjoy their company. By increasing the volume of their activities, they have gotten more of my attention. They help broaden my view so that I don't take anything too seriously. I become part of a highly capable and dynamic team when I stay in contact with these fabulous, divine resources. And now I have learned that I do not need to ever disconnect--by totally surrendering to my Christ Self, I access the mechanism that merges Heaven and Earth and the multi-layered beautiful paradise unfolds before me.
For some time when I have expressed reluctance about sharing my experience or the healing energies, Pinky has urged me to let him take the lead--that he has done it before and knows how to handle it. I have felt the underlying desire to do this, but I also felt my mind still holding on and not being able to totally surrender because it got caught up in trying to figure out how to let go. I expressed a sensation of having been catapulted but still holding on with one hand which was creating a tremendous strain, like being stretched on a 'rack'. . . Then, the other night, Pinky reached out and I gave him that hand and off I flew. I released myself from my self-imposed tether and ended up where both realms exist in harmony instead of trying to stretch from one to the other. I am extremely grateful for the fulfilling of a felt desire and I am once again shown the power of the sincere expression of that felt desire to start the ball rolling towards its fulfillment.
As my capacity for Pinky has increased, he is once again expressing his delight in more intimate communing with me. I still swoon when this being of such awesome Beauty, Light and Love expresses his desire and Love for me. Accepting that my Love makes a difference to him requires True Self Love. He tells me that not only does it make a difference to him but he revels in it and it brings him great joy. When I live in acceptance and awareness of our Love and the Love shared among all the members of my inner family, truly, nothing else really matters.
. . . and it is all available to all, all the time, on the inside . . .
Earlier, I mentioned a session with my friend, Veronica, in which I project healing vibes to her over Earth's EM airwaves. (We are working together to get rid of a menacing disease.) At 11PM my time (PDT), I focus on her and send the energies out and they travel to her via the planet's EM network. At the same time, Veronica focuses on receiving the transmission which comes in through the receptors in her heart and she distributes them to where they are needed most. This serves as a boost to her own healing system. An idea has occurred to me--I have been aware that when I project the healing energies in that way, everything between me and the point of destination is being blessed by the healing touch that is passing through the EM circuitry. I have been taught that the projected energies are twice as effective when the recipient is open and focused on receiving and distributing the vital charge. I invite anyone and everyone to get it on this healing vibration being sent out over Earth's EM network every evening at 11 PM PDT. I invite everyone to focus within, open your heart and receive the blast of Unconditional Love that is being freely sent over the airwaves at that time or any time as far as that goes. Anytime you ask for it, Love will come freely and limitlessly pouring into your heart.
If anyone feels it would help, I will happily add them and their felt needs to my prayer list. In addition to generally broadcasting the healing energies over the EM network, I can specifically direct the energies by bringing special needs to mind while projecting. You can reach me by e-mail with a simple, yet specific description of how you would like the healing energies applied, then do your best to tune in at 11 PM PST to receive your application.
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Written 5 May 1997. Revised 4 December 1998. Copyright © 1998,1999 by the Order of Pink Roses.